I'm just not real happy right now. I've been crying on and off all day today. What is my problem you might ask yourself?
In approximately 45 days, I will be turning 40. That's right, November 27, 2010 is doomsday for me. I'm just not happy about it at all. I emailed my mother this morning and told her I don't want a cake, I don't want to hear anyone sing Happy Birthday to me and giving me crap about me having gray hair or about how it all goes hill from here, about how I'm still a baby, BLAH. BLAH. FREAKING BLAH.
Spare me! Please!
I was excited to turn 30. I did lots of partying and God knows what else in my early to mid 20s, had a great time. Got married two weeks shy of being 29, had a baby at 30 and I was ready to be in my 30s, ready to move on with the next stage of my life and my 30s have been great. But now, I'm sliding into 40 and I'm just not ready. I feel like my life is slipping away so fast, before I know it, I'm going to have 2 teenage girls....driving.....in college then getting married and having kids of their own!
I think 1970 was a great year to be born. Great because #1, I was born, and great because there were significant things going on in history....Vietnam War, Civil Rights Movement, Women's Rights Movement and let's not forget All My Children aired and Susan Lucci was 20 years old, and these shows also aired, The Odd Couple, The Partridge Family, Mary Tyler Moore Show, the movie M*A*S*H, the Jackson 5 was quite popular and The Beatles broke up!
On the day I was born, Bolivian artist Benjamin Mendoza tried to assassinate Pope Paul VI during his visit in Manila....BUT.......
I'm just not ready to turn 40 and I guess I don't have a choice. Mike is taking me on a cruise the first of December for my birthday, but I'm going to pretend it's just a nice getaway for our anniversary which is in a month.
I think I want to sit around the house and watch college football all day on THAT day and sulk.