As stated
before, our church was having 21 days of prayer and fasting from
January 5 to January 25. Since I can't fast food or
drink (surgery took care of that for me), I chose to fast social media and
stupid games on my phone. That included Facebook, Instragram, Twitter,
Pinterest, Candy Crush and Dragon City. Those are the main ones.
The purpose of me doing this was so I could focus on my family
and work on organization of our house. Now, don't get me wrong, those
things were not taking over my life, but after working all day, sitting in the car for at least an hour trying to get home from work, cooking dinner, helping with homework, etc, Mike would turn on the TV and watch
Bizarre Foods or something, I would get bored and pick up my phone and
socialize or play games. I wanted to put that wasted time to good use.
Little did I know, I feel like like I got a whole lotta nothin'
done. I tried to make good dinners every night even though I was having
to work late. I tried to keep laundry done even though it kept on piling
up, while still not being able to work on the stuff I intended to work on.
I tried to just keep pushing on through and trying to make this
work. I don't know what it is about me.
I have real good intentions and ideas, but my pea brain won't get itself
together.
Mike and I tried to get the house cleaned, but it just didn't happen. One
week was pretty rough, having to work late because of doctor's appointments and
just stuff that comes up. I mean on one Friday night I worked until 5:30.
Who works until 5:30 on a Friday night? Everyone was gone except me
and Mr. Joe, our 92 year old cleaning guy.
So we had to end up calling the lady that cleans for us about once a month.
I feel like a failure as a wife and mother when I can't even get my own
house clean. I mean, my mother kept our house clean and she worked full
time, just like I do. I don't know if it's just the times we live in, but I
feel like a loser.
Although, I will say that I enjoy the house being clean right before the
weekend so I could focus on the things I've been intending to do, which still
didn’t happen. Although, I did get our
meals planned out for two weeks. That is
a HUGE thing for me to accomplish.
After this first time of
fasting from social media, I do like feel I was more focused on my family and I
can only hope that they noticed. I'm excited to be back blogging now!
What I learned from this fast was that no one really cares if you are on social media or not. Life goes on with or without you, in many ways. I really didn't miss it too terribly bad, I just missed talking to old friends and stuff like that.